So are things ordained in life?
Well, I have to accept there is an important dimension in my life that I do not know or understand. So I might as well invoke this dimension at times, especially at tough ones. And say, God, if You exist, this is the time to come and help me, not necessarily believing there is a God, nor that He would help me, but so much wishing for it! On the day my votes were being counted for instance, I certainly said that to myself.

So you do not become an agnostic at these times, but rather a believer?
Not really, because I am not sure how much I believe in my prayer. It is more like a casual sentence I throw out to somebody I don’t believe exists, but who just might, in a very friendly way, talking to Him like to my closest buddy.

So it is not about a conviction that there is a protective force in your life?
No, it is more like a backup. In case You do exist, then why don’t You help?

So in moments of really difficult challenges, where do you find the energy?
Nixon once said that life is not about success or failure, once you have gotten what you wanted, it does not matter anymore. Instead, life is about challenges and overcoming them. It is not about being happy or not, happiness is a very meaningless term. It is not even about being successful or not. The real satisfaction in my life comes from having challenges and meeting them. It gives a purpose to life. And as long as there is a purpose in life, life is worth living.

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