It reminds me of a story about Ramana Maharshi, maybe the most profound practitioner of non-duality --- there is no God outside of you, It is you! He was once asked if everything is in accordance to fate.
“Yes” he said.
And he further added:
“Imagine you were sitting in a train’s carriage. Another passenger carrying a suitcase on his head enters the carriage. He sits down but does not put the suitcase down on the floor. What would you say?”
“That he is a fool! said the questioner. An engine is pulling the train and its carriages, so why carry the suitcase?”
“So whoever is pulling the carriage of your life...”

You also quoted from the Quran: “in Him I have put my trust and to Him I turn penitently”
Of course I have put my trust in Him. You are part of that “Him” as I am. Who, what is that Him? There are various names of It. There is a wonderful Sanskrit quote, “I am the universe, you are Me”. It is the concept of non-duality: there is no Him outside of me.

As a child you had belief, and later on came faith, how did that happen?
I was born in very conservative, traditional circumstances. So I understood early the essence of belief. Then there were too numerous experiences. And faith gradually came. It is not that I had some sudden revelation. I have not been illuminated as some other people have. It is like water in a well --- not an artesian well that suddenly erupts from the ground, but one in which the water slowly rises.

... contd.