This has been a routine for this ill-fated lady even since her husband Addul Rashid Shah went missing from Uri market in 1995. The missing of Shah has left Begum's life shattered and now it is becoming hard for her to take care of her five children including a daughter.

"My husband had a dream to give his children a good education. After he went missing everything changed in my family," Begum said. "My three elder children were in the school at the time when their father disappeared in Army custody. Poverty forced all of them to shun education one by one."

Begum resorted to begging to run her family affairs. "We don't have any agricultural land. Life is becoming difficult with each passing day."

The missing story of Shah dates back to March 28, 1998, when he was on the way to Salamabad when men in civvies who were members of Army Intelligence picked him from the Uri market. "Villagers saw my husband being dumped in the Army vehicle," said Begum.

Soon after Shah was picked up by the intelligence, relatives approached to the local police and Army. But neither Army nor Police acknowledged his arrest.

On March 29, 1994 the family registered an FIR in Uri Police station. Since then police is continuing its search to trace missing Shah. "Police did little to trace my husband," said Begum. 'I don't know why Shah was picked by the Army."

Losing faith in police, Shah's cousin filed a petition with the State Human Rights Commission (SHRC). After several hearing's, the Commission asked the IG Police to submit a report about Shah. In the meantime Shah's relatives were told by some people that he is lodged at Udhampur jail. The human rights commission also wrote a letter to the jail superintendent. But, the superintendent refused Shah's presence in his jail.

Finally, the human rights commission asked J-K Chief Secretary to pay Rs 1 lakh to the family of Shah as compensation and a government job under SRO-43. Neither the job nor the compensation was given to the family. Meanwhile, Zareefa continue to seek alms from villagers for her children. "From past ten years, I have been looking towards to government and Non Governmental Organisations. But no one came to our rescue."